This post has been rolling around in my head for several days now, and I hope it comes out in the way I intend. Please understand this all applies to ME and ME ONLY.
Not being able to get off the couch for most of a week gives you a lot of time for reflecting…you know, once you’re all caught up on Toddler’s & Tiaras and stuff.
I thought about how much TIME blogging takes.
Reality: I spend 1-2 hours/day dealing with emails, sponsors, giveaways (many of which never go anywhere)…that doesn’t include projects, pictures, writing posts, etc.
Then I had the thought:
What if I spent 1-2 hours/day strengthening my marriage? What if I spent that time helping someone? What if I spent that time playing trains with my 3 year old? What if I spent that time on a walk? What if I spent that time doing service?
And then I knew.
I play a lot of different roles:
#7 on the role list can’t be #1 on the time list.
I used to find so much joy in blogging and creating, but over the last year, something’s changed. I listened to too many people who were not myself. I worried about numbers. I worried about pitches. I got caught up in pushing/promoting projects. I did projects I didn’t love for the money/freebies. I cried when my Google AdSense ads got cancelled (WHAT THE CRAP???). I listened too much to what a blogger “should” do instead of what my heart wants to do. My heart doesn’t want to be a professional blogger. My heart wants to be a mom…a mom who is present.
I’m not quitting my blog, I’m quitting the BUSINESS of blogging.
If I don’t want to post for a month, I won’t. If I want to post every day, I will. I’m not creating stuff just to have content. I’m going back to what I love and who I am. If we’ve already talked, don’t worry. I’ll continue to fulfill my obligations. I will no longer be taking sidebar sponsors. The string of emails/invoicing/calendaring/giveaways/post writing/etc. is a time suck. I want you and your Etsy shops to be successful, truly I do…just not more than I want my family to be successful. You can respect that, right?
I’ve met people through blogging that I NEEDED to know. I’m forever grateful for and changed by the experiences I’ve had. I’ve learned SO MUCH.
And really…I’ll still be here. I’ve got a bunch of printable Valentines on tap over the next week or so. Plus, an organizing project and a $100 gift card giveaway from Lowe’s. Nice, right?